lesson~

Yesterday night, before wen for dinner, I go a hostel find my friend, anday, wed meet another friend. Learn something that day, we need to learn how to mask for "good thing". English very importance in the future. Want try make some Indian friends to learn to speak English.

tuesday ~~ ~~ music + dance

Today I play a song, wow, discover something fun, slowly I can even hear the "left hand" sound of lyrics. More fun, I will create lyrics when I am free^^ Today got dance a while, fun. practise my see the video. Actually thanks to dance, because is dance give me "ling2 gan3" to think out the lyric of music one XD
I like music and dance ^^

free monday~ free mind~

learn something ^^ Every people got their mistake time, sure got do mistake, just learn it up, change it even better. Even though I agree this society' reality, need accept it, this few year really accept many thing. And suddenly I know that life is short because already got two people, one is my ex schoolmate, one is now utarmate have pass away.

This year I really happy than before, I never so happy, can not imagine my life now, this is what I want, simple and happy. But I know happy moment very short! So only appreciate and all follow natural.
Like what hui ming has tell me, in this world what we done we can not let all people accept what we have done, but do it if you want and is what the life you want XD

Mom dam, I will study hard, I don't want say it only, want do it, I know you both already give me the best that I want, always tolerance me even though you both really hope I stay in home, but why I like adventure and out going life? Why I not like brothers like to stay at home? Give me some time. I will back home!  

Yesterday I have go out original just want ask the sales girl about the vacancy, but they straight away give me write my timetable, if I got this job want to see this match my time or not. Today I borrow one english book and essay from library, can practice ^^

Don't have not enough time just whether we know how to arrange it or not ^^

crazy + Concert + hip hop + pop dance ~~ ^^

My life is becoming more and more excited. Suddenly I feel that I can manage my own time. Yeah! ^^ keeping it!  Just made all things simple. Actually English is not so difficult, yes, I can read it, can write it, can sing and can dance it. Trust myself. Confidence! English, I want love you, can not hate you T.T Add oil!

     Last last week after jogging, I want to follow ching siew n jun them to see where is the venue of Zhong Hua Yi Fan. When I am hesitate want go in or not, luckily I got an extra ticket, yeah, I can enter. Long time not so excited already, because first time participate event in UTAR. This is what I want ^^ We saw Ping Guan, and many performance from dance club, music club, Wu Shu and so on.

     Friday night got music gathering, but sin on the  floor, stairs, congratulation to us. Got 2 guy that play piano and er hoo touch me, I can hear their music until T.T, their music really not simple.

     Last Monday evening after class, I first time went to dance club to learn dance. Wow, my first time XD really can not imagine, this is what I expect for long time already ^^ Very fun!  Although we late a bit, but still very excited. We warm up and learn basic of hip hop dance. This is my first time learn hip hop.

    This Friday means Yesterday evening I go dance club practise again, this time practise " Girls on the dance floor". Wow, this is my first time learn whole song. Yeah! Know new friend there. Then I rush to block a heritage hall watch " creative song composition competition. ^^ Although RM 8 something, but at least learn a lesson, think before buy ^^ Still can allow 2 people free entrance to see Wu Jia Hui. Thanks Ching Siew and another don't know what name' guy, accompany me crazy back and eat supper and so call dinner.

      Today I, Evelyn and Synn Xiang go Guang Liang concert to see his mini interaction concert. Yeah, first time again, so short distance with him, we meet a news reporter, I very admire her. Although her parents oppose, she still bravely catch her dream, she say shortened everything we will find time, such as, yam cha time shortened to 1 hour, or other else, we need how to compare what is importance and not importance, and bravely do the things that you like. Guang Liang got say composing song can earn money, may be I can consider. Tonight we four guys have dinner at old town XD yeah ^^ Actually very fun! Have an adventure field night, thanks ^^ Appreciate! But the shop name I think should change to " dang gu gu" because very long time, really happy tonight ^^ ok, Sunday I want study. I know I can^^ If got time I want go Old town but I fail to made it, hope next time XD Good night ^^

my life

You can do it. The past that have go through, can overcome! I can do it! Think positively XD
Remove negative, from now.

Primary school, secondary school, I always think is it got true friends, but as I grow elder and elder, I found it. I found true friends. All follow naturally.

Yes, I admit from I am small, I am a little girl that has no confidence, that afraid all things, that care and scare about others opinion about myself, less safety. I live in a very big house, which is half wood and half stone house.  My house is a place that do "taukee" got many "huo lu". I am a quite person when I am small because I am an unconfidence person. All people play the swing and "qiao qiao ban" happily except me, I don't know I afraid for what. May be my mom and dad work that time and no time take care me and let me take care by "kai ma", 4 years old I brang to kindergarden. Actually I like home more, which is 1 week only see my mom once.

(but now got kindergarden friend said I have changed, become more cheerful and active)

        Once I enter primary school, I also same. I just make a judgement may be my mother is quite fierce that time, always scold us, and this will decrease our confidence ( from sociolization, once a children undergo pre school, will try adapt if not will become inferiority, demand from academic and social friends), that time, I lack both, I am a lazy person in primary school, the most beaten by teachers because always do wrong. But luckily I still can enter good class, but I don't like, everyone like very reality,  ( we are just primary school only ==") may be is I am quiet they less communicate with me, sometimes I also bully by others. ( may be my thinking is too negative that time) I just like home, like my sibling and others cousins, when playing with them, feel very familiar and secure may be ^^. That time I quiet than synn xiang. Can not imagine. ( that is why I can understand her feeling). I watch many movie that times, I guess my thinking change my television program, like hong kong episode, or others, my confidence start build. When enter standard six, ee leen and hui  ing change to our class. My life start change. I found true friends, may be they are from other " normal class" more 讲义气, (this learn from television program, haha)

     When enter secondary school. I start try to change. (change unconfidence, change shyness, change quiet)
Change in a so called "reality school" Jit Sin is not simple, I anticipate girl guide, teens channel. I try speak and become dj and dischocket at school before. Although I know the reality of jit sin, I learn the determination of jit sin, but I know I can not become like them, especially those who "wear mask" so much, (that some of the girl guide committee, so reality) I don't like! I just hope escape, but finally i face it. I go through it. ><

     But in Jit Sin also found some true friends make me feel warm and supportive XD Thanks ^^ especially form 3 that "siao po gang" I like XD thanks, my heaven life. Is you all support me, made me change, let me have my confidence to find out my dream, do the thing that I like, participate teens' channel. Form 3 life is the happiest year in secondary schoolXD, mc2, sing song, song score,

     And come out work and even now study in university, friends at here more more more better than " reality" friend at Jit Sin. Actually, I like kampar, UTAR so much. This is the most " warm" "unreality" "fantastic" "crazy" life for me, I met many kinds of friends, although we got may difference but "a heart brings us together"
I like it, appreciate everything now ^^ yeah XD thanks
  

growth of mind part 2

Yeah, finally I face it, obstacles, nothing is impossible for me already, I face my family.

Yesterday night talk "heart" things to Synn xiang, and know many things, growth ^^

Long journey of life^^

believe

I believe I can influence my parents, positively XD

true friends~

Ever heard an expression "laugh and the world laugh with you, cry and you cry alone" ? It is sadly. But I am very lucky. I have true friends who help me when I am down, Friends are always there when we need them. Whenever we need someone to celebrate with or need a shoulder to cry on, they are always available. 

      Can I do it? Besides study and do all assignments, practise piano and English everyday, can I do it? Besides challenge of time is challenge of my determination, yes, I can. I believe^^ Thanks all my family and friends that support me. First of all is keep writing blog. But how do I know I write correct or not, got grammar or not? 

 

This week pass already, yeah! This is the week which has 1 midterm, 1 presentation and 2 assignment need to pass up. The 5 minute speech is quite satisfied, although some points I can not memorize. Got a presentation touch my heart deeply. I learn how to do cocktail. 

     

growth ^^

stop, stop thinking negative, when my positive thinking come back? At least I have learnt something.
Yes, human can not be to want one thing, fetch the wrong things, if feel unhappy is because you fetching the wrong things. Am I finding searching my own identity?

Sometimes really tired, I don't want the friends that can laugh together and when cry you cry alone, don't!.

Be tough, xue jou, please, be tough. I am so lucky.
I know the lesson already, all is over, but it is still occur, all the things, is because my behavior, is because my personality, my unconfidence.

At least I learn something, all follow natural flow, you want me alone, I alone, you want me with friends, I do, I will apprecate whatever what give me, yes, come on obstacles, I am not scare you, I don't afraid you and I will not avoid you anymore, I will challenge it positively XD

growth of mind

Depends myself, yes, I learn how to independent. Happiness is from heart. The most important is not what we do, is what we think.^^

my feeling ~

I think although jit sin people got their "intelligence", got their skill, expert or all the good things, but is that too reality good? No, it is too mechanistic, it is like treating people as machine, why do I talk about management? I know that action is just for increasing our adaptation to reality world but who care? Why being so realistic? 
And some of them are even proud or judge people before making friend. Is hurt, isn't ? Yes, definitely I experience it. "Famous school" ??? I don't care, I even enter berapit. Just wish to have simple happiness. 
9 As, I don't care, why so work hard? Is it even give up your all happiness, no, I can't do that, I can't repeat my method. Method problem. 


I think  jit sin people should be more humble and personalize, not means all, just some of them. And learn how to care about others feeling. No talents, is it worst? No!  creative, not everything law by law, even SPM, the testing method also need improve. How can people like like me such "terrible" English can got A also? May be is short term. 


I am very happy that this year my life change, I not even study at Jit Sin, although got some "culture shock" also, but I feel very happy, like crazy^^  But except some of my friends, missing them so much! Fortunately got them, I still alive in there, yes, they very nice!  Some of jitsiness very optimistic, like me^^ 

Yeah, finding piano from youtube^^ Remember learn English through story, movie or fm. Add oil, all the best! thanks all my friends ^^





        

yeah, finish my test after 2 days' test of economic and effective communication. Yeah, first time feel that I got try my best and not even rush and too nervous in test.

Test, I know how to manage you already.

Uni life is not only playing, is living.

Learn more lesson now,
yes all people cann't be alone. Try to made it out, live out a life you like.