Nothing s impossible ~~~ hui ming birthday ~1st timE`~~~

Amazing. Nothing is impossible. I do it, I means my 1st time do like that. Oh my god, unbelievable, but, it really worth^^ Thanks. this short few hours is my most happier moment, although come and back alone by first time, first time back by train alone, but, I am not afraid XD very adventure and fun! haha. Plus now test is around the corner. Really thanks, cheng siew, and ping ping^^

I can not tell ping that not my parents come fetch me. First, she put me at jusco. When I entered, I straight go jusco' library, I worry encounter my parents. I study there, and know a new friend there who is doing assignment study at University, forgot what name already. Then, I wait Yi Qian finish her work in BM fetch hui ming together come jusco find me. Yi qian' s friend fetch us go train station buy my "back" ticket first then we go a Japan Restaurant. My first time also. HM also worry meet her parents because she tell them that she just go Jusco and din say about me. I need a MASK that time, hope nobody will recognize me, haha.

We eat egg roll mee, shushi and many delicious food, my favourite ^^ and cacor....
3 siao po start crazy non stop talking + laughing. Time too short for us to chat.

Surprise: CAKE happy birthday to hui ming^^
Her first time, cry la cry XD
So difficult for 3 of us to meet together. 2 got work 1 got test, wow

Then eugene call me, he and alvin both bring their girl friends go karaoke, long time no see, still so TB, haha. Hui MIng sing the most, haha.

Have to back earlier because yi qian and her friend got work the next day, and have to fetch me to ktm, thanks to them. Sleeping in yi qian house, learnt many, I growth a little bit today ~~~

know my mistake~ change it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nervous, tonight 9 pm choose timetable already, this time how? next semester how? Think think think, no need think every time I think also not accurate one, nervous. Today I learn some lesson, that is want learn how to say no! say no SAY NO! Thanks a kiam. I know you got some experience that others can not understands. But this made you trough! more TROUGH!

follow my own? ?????????? or follow????????????????????????????????????????????
actually both also can because already experience~~~

I feel very guilty! I have made a wrong choice before, wrong wrong WRONG!
I am so sorry!!! Why can I be like that, so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I think angry is necessary because I am unforgivable, but I wont do it next time and, will learn how to say NO!

Xue jou, if you can not concentrate, don't blame people, because it is your problem to choose to follow others go out and is you don't know how to say no, so it is my own problem, now think back, why so childish? why? why? Why can so childish? lesson, never mine, and things or friends can not be so 执着,
now i only know I am really not a good friend!!!

I will change my BAD attitude, perhaps it is not too late!
I will try to change my "BAD" attitude!
This decision is a most " noob" decision! Why? I promise this is the last time that I made so "noob" decision! And, the problem is, I don't know how to say no, so, I want to challenge it in next semester,
Now only know, human is really care about others thinking because through others will see own self, and that is call looking-glass self. All let it flow naturally~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

This is university, "social uni" and

~~ lost ~~

decision again, why? meteor, can you bring me to a right direction, I am so confused now, please.
Hui ming, I want to go back, I know you hope too, why? time not match. Yi  qian tell me when you know I am not back she saw your dissapointness, causing me suddenly want to went back!

God what way should I go? What decision should I made? I totally lost! I don't want alone again! Yang shi, sinthoong, chooi hua, yee han, miss you all so much, if you are here you all will  guide me what should I do! Actually just a simple decision. SIMPLE DECISION. Sometimes i just will saw a blind sport! Who actually is my true friends? Who? I am lost !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am also a human being, use jenny' open minded, 1 person not so big problem!
Add OiL ^^ but, this semester really don't want alone, oh god, can not study today again, sure no mood to study, add oil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     think of hui ming and yi qian!  

cheer

nest semester I don't want 1 people >< Don't want T.T
I don't want mix mix TT Really suffer, oh God, do you hear me, wishing lake, do you function? Can I just make a wish? Can I? I don't want don't want alone, please! Cheer ^^ XD

XD XD XD smile, cheer!

I wil try my best back hometown!

mY dREaM ~

Live a life that you like. Sometimes I might ask myself, what is the life that I want? Can we don't do anything that we don't like? Can't? Is it? Today is a normal Saturday. I have arrange my third semester timetable, but please, is it alone in semester 3 again? God, up to you, no matter what happen, I have go through, that "suffer" moment already pass, how is my life? Unexpectionable, never mine. Just learn a sentence, I spoke no English when I was small. How do I write argumentative essay or academic essay if I even can not write a good story or express myself? Can I score my English? I tried to relax, but hundred questions zoomed around my head. Calm down!

        Hui ming, I don't know how to tell yi qian that I can not attend your karaoke birthday party? Can I? I know
you will understand. Hope you no discover this because want to give you a surprise. I wont forgot our "promise". Every times think back you will being motivated although already long time no see. >< Hoping that day! My dream!!!

ecs sketch~~~friday

I try my best, I will try my best to love you, English! Tonignt I and Synn Xiang have dinner with banana. Synn xiang borrow Muet book from Banana. Banana uni life like very stress. I don't want, I don't want lack of play of life, will bored me. Learnt many from the conversation. Study essay every night is it?

Talk back my life. In this week, I have already go through effective communication sketch. Although one of our group members fever, but, I really enjoy the whole process. I like this semester, got sociolization' s video, cheng siew fun fat people video, and this "playing more than practise". Anyway, fun but, I am quite tired now, I need rest now.

tuesday 1 day holiday

Recently, practising effective communication' s sketch. Wow, I become wai siew bo' mom, 2nd time to become mother again, haha. Actually sketch very fun. Enjoy it so much^^ and the fat people sketch fun too ^^

Recently feel that facebook is not a safety place already >< freedom, where are you?
Let make a hypothesis, if 1 day my parents will ..... but impossible, that thing happen, although I want it so much XD wake up, xue jou, how old I am, only 18, 18 ok, why so fast want fly?

but I really want to go to KL find hui ming, wait one day, I can make it^^
Yesterday go replacement class, first time attend class with kharis, david and rose marry, they very funny, haha, I take back lecturer' attendance list, oh my god, how can I do that, haha

first time eat a pan mian RM 5 something, first and the last time, haha XD although really nice that mee, but heart pain TT

Yee kee and banana and all degree friends next week test, add oil, jia you!

monopiano, don't know double handed, nevermine, singlehand, monohand also can ^^ yeah, waiting "shinnyo' album"     think too much, haha

Just now lunch eat with ecs group mate, shir lim they share about love, their love story let me think back............... something, nothing XD

Hui ming, yi qian, waiting you bring one bf when chinese new year XD haha

I want, I want go karaok party next saturday TT, can I?? can I? How?
I want! challenge again, nevermine, I face you, challenge, come on!!!!

sem break is coming soon~ planning to go KL, or woring part time, can I, xue jou, don't give up, ^^ 坚持到底, and learn car! add oil!  
yi qian do it, learning her favourite design and working as designer and in jusco.

Don't so childish, xue jou!! want understand parents ^^   and gain my own freedom ^^ and make them happy!
Yes!

ｗｈａｔ ｓｈｏｕｌｄ Ｉ ｄｏ？？

Encouragement from parents and family really is a motivation, but why? If in the opposite site, how is it?
My dad say, " if one thing is in the danger, we better don't touch it, I want learn drive car and I hope to drive myself but it seem not working. Why? why everytime also like that?
Really is if anything danger we can not touch? really is if danger we can not keep try it?

Xue jou, hear parents' advise, please, hear, why I fail to  do that, why I still want to face uncertainty, why I still want keep trying challenging? What should I do? I don't want my family worry about me, what should I do?

Why I still keep challenge new things?

如果家人的反对和不支持， 这是阻力，爸爸妈妈，你们可以相信我，鼓励我？ 我需要你们的支持， worry too much, how ? how??  I don't want lie, don't.

a FuN day ^^

Should I go back hometown?  This question also can made me so hesitated, I hate my hesitation, I decided already, I back! Hope this time I made a correct decision. A day an essay, try to make it. Today, I saw my class ecs presentation and my friends other group ecs presentation. Still have 3 weeks final already. Don't care, I bring test book back I think won't effect much. hui ming yi qian, i try to make it, I hope I can go back again before final, really hope, why every time time not match one, but although didn't meet, also in my heart everyday.

Yeah, sociolization presentation finish already and miss kow say very good, content enough n suitable. Yeah ^^
Today also help my friends made video. Quite fun. Know some new friends also and we dance wakawaka together. ^^ Sharon and Dvid and another forgot already.

Hope I am making right decision!

lesson~

Yesterday night, before wen for dinner, I go a hostel find my friend, anday, wed meet another friend. Learn something that day, we need to learn how to mask for "good thing". English very importance in the future. Want try make some Indian friends to learn to speak English.

tuesday ~~ ~~ music + dance

Today I play a song, wow, discover something fun, slowly I can even hear the "left hand" sound of lyrics. More fun, I will create lyrics when I am free^^ Today got dance a while, fun. practise my see the video. Actually thanks to dance, because is dance give me "ling2 gan3" to think out the lyric of music one XD
I like music and dance ^^

free monday~ free mind~

learn something ^^ Every people got their mistake time, sure got do mistake, just learn it up, change it even better. Even though I agree this society' reality, need accept it, this few year really accept many thing. And suddenly I know that life is short because already got two people, one is my ex schoolmate, one is now utarmate have pass away.

This year I really happy than before, I never so happy, can not imagine my life now, this is what I want, simple and happy. But I know happy moment very short! So only appreciate and all follow natural.
Like what hui ming has tell me, in this world what we done we can not let all people accept what we have done, but do it if you want and is what the life you want XD

Mom dam, I will study hard, I don't want say it only, want do it, I know you both already give me the best that I want, always tolerance me even though you both really hope I stay in home, but why I like adventure and out going life? Why I not like brothers like to stay at home? Give me some time. I will back home!  

Yesterday I have go out original just want ask the sales girl about the vacancy, but they straight away give me write my timetable, if I got this job want to see this match my time or not. Today I borrow one english book and essay from library, can practice ^^

Don't have not enough time just whether we know how to arrange it or not ^^

crazy + Concert + hip hop + pop dance ~~ ^^

My life is becoming more and more excited. Suddenly I feel that I can manage my own time. Yeah! ^^ keeping it!  Just made all things simple. Actually English is not so difficult, yes, I can read it, can write it, can sing and can dance it. Trust myself. Confidence! English, I want love you, can not hate you T.T Add oil!

     Last last week after jogging, I want to follow ching siew n jun them to see where is the venue of Zhong Hua Yi Fan. When I am hesitate want go in or not, luckily I got an extra ticket, yeah, I can enter. Long time not so excited already, because first time participate event in UTAR. This is what I want ^^ We saw Ping Guan, and many performance from dance club, music club, Wu Shu and so on.

     Friday night got music gathering, but sin on the  floor, stairs, congratulation to us. Got 2 guy that play piano and er hoo touch me, I can hear their music until T.T, their music really not simple.

     Last Monday evening after class, I first time went to dance club to learn dance. Wow, my first time XD really can not imagine, this is what I expect for long time already ^^ Very fun!  Although we late a bit, but still very excited. We warm up and learn basic of hip hop dance. This is my first time learn hip hop.

    This Friday means Yesterday evening I go dance club practise again, this time practise " Girls on the dance floor". Wow, this is my first time learn whole song. Yeah! Know new friend there. Then I rush to block a heritage hall watch " creative song composition competition. ^^ Although RM 8 something, but at least learn a lesson, think before buy ^^ Still can allow 2 people free entrance to see Wu Jia Hui. Thanks Ching Siew and another don't know what name' guy, accompany me crazy back and eat supper and so call dinner.

      Today I, Evelyn and Synn Xiang go Guang Liang concert to see his mini interaction concert. Yeah, first time again, so short distance with him, we meet a news reporter, I very admire her. Although her parents oppose, she still bravely catch her dream, she say shortened everything we will find time, such as, yam cha time shortened to 1 hour, or other else, we need how to compare what is importance and not importance, and bravely do the things that you like. Guang Liang got say composing song can earn money, may be I can consider. Tonight we four guys have dinner at old town XD yeah ^^ Actually very fun! Have an adventure field night, thanks ^^ Appreciate! But the shop name I think should change to " dang gu gu" because very long time, really happy tonight ^^ ok, Sunday I want study. I know I can^^ If got time I want go Old town but I fail to made it, hope next time XD Good night ^^

my life

You can do it. The past that have go through, can overcome! I can do it! Think positively XD
Remove negative, from now.

Primary school, secondary school, I always think is it got true friends, but as I grow elder and elder, I found it. I found true friends. All follow naturally.

Yes, I admit from I am small, I am a little girl that has no confidence, that afraid all things, that care and scare about others opinion about myself, less safety. I live in a very big house, which is half wood and half stone house.  My house is a place that do "taukee" got many "huo lu". I am a quite person when I am small because I am an unconfidence person. All people play the swing and "qiao qiao ban" happily except me, I don't know I afraid for what. May be my mom and dad work that time and no time take care me and let me take care by "kai ma", 4 years old I brang to kindergarden. Actually I like home more, which is 1 week only see my mom once.

(but now got kindergarden friend said I have changed, become more cheerful and active)

        Once I enter primary school, I also same. I just make a judgement may be my mother is quite fierce that time, always scold us, and this will decrease our confidence ( from sociolization, once a children undergo pre school, will try adapt if not will become inferiority, demand from academic and social friends), that time, I lack both, I am a lazy person in primary school, the most beaten by teachers because always do wrong. But luckily I still can enter good class, but I don't like, everyone like very reality,  ( we are just primary school only ==") may be is I am quiet they less communicate with me, sometimes I also bully by others. ( may be my thinking is too negative that time) I just like home, like my sibling and others cousins, when playing with them, feel very familiar and secure may be ^^. That time I quiet than synn xiang. Can not imagine. ( that is why I can understand her feeling). I watch many movie that times, I guess my thinking change my television program, like hong kong episode, or others, my confidence start build. When enter standard six, ee leen and hui  ing change to our class. My life start change. I found true friends, may be they are from other " normal class" more 讲义气, (this learn from television program, haha)

     When enter secondary school. I start try to change. (change unconfidence, change shyness, change quiet)
Change in a so called "reality school" Jit Sin is not simple, I anticipate girl guide, teens channel. I try speak and become dj and dischocket at school before. Although I know the reality of jit sin, I learn the determination of jit sin, but I know I can not become like them, especially those who "wear mask" so much, (that some of the girl guide committee, so reality) I don't like! I just hope escape, but finally i face it. I go through it. ><

     But in Jit Sin also found some true friends make me feel warm and supportive XD Thanks ^^ especially form 3 that "siao po gang" I like XD thanks, my heaven life. Is you all support me, made me change, let me have my confidence to find out my dream, do the thing that I like, participate teens' channel. Form 3 life is the happiest year in secondary schoolXD, mc2, sing song, song score,

     And come out work and even now study in university, friends at here more more more better than " reality" friend at Jit Sin. Actually, I like kampar, UTAR so much. This is the most " warm" "unreality" "fantastic" "crazy" life for me, I met many kinds of friends, although we got may difference but "a heart brings us together"
I like it, appreciate everything now ^^ yeah XD thanks
  

growth of mind part 2

Yeah, finally I face it, obstacles, nothing is impossible for me already, I face my family.

Yesterday night talk "heart" things to Synn xiang, and know many things, growth ^^

Long journey of life^^

believe

I believe I can influence my parents, positively XD

true friends~

Ever heard an expression "laugh and the world laugh with you, cry and you cry alone" ? It is sadly. But I am very lucky. I have true friends who help me when I am down, Friends are always there when we need them. Whenever we need someone to celebrate with or need a shoulder to cry on, they are always available. 

      Can I do it? Besides study and do all assignments, practise piano and English everyday, can I do it? Besides challenge of time is challenge of my determination, yes, I can. I believe^^ Thanks all my family and friends that support me. First of all is keep writing blog. But how do I know I write correct or not, got grammar or not? 

 

This week pass already, yeah! This is the week which has 1 midterm, 1 presentation and 2 assignment need to pass up. The 5 minute speech is quite satisfied, although some points I can not memorize. Got a presentation touch my heart deeply. I learn how to do cocktail. 

     

growth ^^

stop, stop thinking negative, when my positive thinking come back? At least I have learnt something.
Yes, human can not be to want one thing, fetch the wrong things, if feel unhappy is because you fetching the wrong things. Am I finding searching my own identity?

Sometimes really tired, I don't want the friends that can laugh together and when cry you cry alone, don't!.

Be tough, xue jou, please, be tough. I am so lucky.
I know the lesson already, all is over, but it is still occur, all the things, is because my behavior, is because my personality, my unconfidence.

At least I learn something, all follow natural flow, you want me alone, I alone, you want me with friends, I do, I will apprecate whatever what give me, yes, come on obstacles, I am not scare you, I don't afraid you and I will not avoid you anymore, I will challenge it positively XD

growth of mind

Depends myself, yes, I learn how to independent. Happiness is from heart. The most important is not what we do, is what we think.^^

my feeling ~

I think although jit sin people got their "intelligence", got their skill, expert or all the good things, but is that too reality good? No, it is too mechanistic, it is like treating people as machine, why do I talk about management? I know that action is just for increasing our adaptation to reality world but who care? Why being so realistic? 
And some of them are even proud or judge people before making friend. Is hurt, isn't ? Yes, definitely I experience it. "Famous school" ??? I don't care, I even enter berapit. Just wish to have simple happiness. 
9 As, I don't care, why so work hard? Is it even give up your all happiness, no, I can't do that, I can't repeat my method. Method problem. 


I think  jit sin people should be more humble and personalize, not means all, just some of them. And learn how to care about others feeling. No talents, is it worst? No!  creative, not everything law by law, even SPM, the testing method also need improve. How can people like like me such "terrible" English can got A also? May be is short term. 


I am very happy that this year my life change, I not even study at Jit Sin, although got some "culture shock" also, but I feel very happy, like crazy^^  But except some of my friends, missing them so much! Fortunately got them, I still alive in there, yes, they very nice!  Some of jitsiness very optimistic, like me^^ 

Yeah, finding piano from youtube^^ Remember learn English through story, movie or fm. Add oil, all the best! thanks all my friends ^^





        

yeah, finish my test after 2 days' test of economic and effective communication. Yeah, first time feel that I got try my best and not even rush and too nervous in test.

Test, I know how to manage you already.

Uni life is not only playing, is living.

Learn more lesson now,
yes all people cann't be alone. Try to made it out, live out a life you like.

busy day. Next week got two tests. Today go eat with Utar kampar friends, long time didn't go out with them. Yes, finally I have face my problem. Yes. I do it. Continue add oil! I believe we all can do it. Friends. Be friends easy, how to live together and tolerate is a knowledge. A crazy day. Crazy study crazy play ^^

friendship~~~ mask~~~ stage of life

If tired, think back our promise before that we made together. 

Think back it. 

I got energy  more^^      

Sometime although surround by many friends but like nobody understood you at all. 

Although surround by friends but still feel lonely, 

But you still can not live without friends and your life because nobody is alone in this world. Your surrounding also faced with friends. Just try to learn how to live with them as happy as you can XD. 

A friend that really understood you and know you is difficult to find. 

So appreciate when you found.  

I am very lucky that have found it ^^

This kind of friendship, 

although not beside you, but will feel the warm bring by the friendship. 

Never feel alone~

So, true friend ( far) > friends ( near)      haha XD

Trust + means . 

This kind of friendship won't affected by time, space and distance.

It will tough by time.   

Growth~

Mask~  

actually we no need pretend to be anyone, just protect ourself by 'outside" and just be ourself "inner".    

In life, we no need so tired, because we don't have so much audience. ^^ 

Sometimes when force by surrounding, only can smile and face it open minded. 

~~

Yeah!!!  Just few satisfied, appreciated what I have.

Thank you^^   Thank you all my friends^^

freedom write

Remember, everyone got his or her "bad" face, and it is only use for survive in this society. The most important is, treat people by heart, don't hurt people, but also want to learn protect ourself.

Mom, pa, suddenly miss you all, my brothers, my family and, my relatives, miss you all so much.
The most important is treat everybody same and by true heart^^ I believe, a cool guy will also become good guy  one day. Learning, xue jou.

Don't scare walk wrong step.

Sometimes they say hurt the most is by the people who you concern more and more close. Normal~
Only cheer^^ , cheer and cheer^^

Change, no matter how they are, they also my good friends forever^^

耶，我做对了！

I do corect ady^^
thx hui ming, thx sin thoong, thx yang shi^^ love u all so much^^

go out with UTAR family^^ UTAR家族

Friday night plan to go out eat dinner with Utar ' family. Before it, I go to park watch bird performance. It was life show, I like it, today evening I also want go watch. Go out with them, they like a child, haha, jokey, a very warm and comfortable night. Satisfied^^ Although I home alone, 1 person stay in 3 floor big house, but feel warm. Thanks! that is enough for me. Today morning, 6.30 am go play basketball, thanks again! cycle alone, wow, the wind, watch the lake and the flying bird. Enjoy it very much! haha! Need add oil in assignment and homework, add oil! O ya, first tima eat McDonald in kampar, new town. ^^

success = alone? i hope, no~~~

成功的代价是孤单吗？又有谁会想孤单呢
Success is it alone? I wish no, everytime at school, i done it, go here alone, go there alone, nobody want alone actually, they only don't want to cover a mask, be the true of themselves, do back themselves, no need 俄倪奉献，如是酱，我宁愿一个人，虽然我不喜欢孤单，不喜欢一个人，谁会喜欢？


if you don't know me, please don't try to judge who am I, because sometimes I am not.

Add oil^^

在这现实的世界，有时不得不带面具，做个假坏人~ only in suitable time, be back our self, be real me^^

做个戴着面具的假坏人，对不起，我不得不这么做，如果不这么做伤害到你更深，我觉得我没资格做你的朋友，我怕，我不懂怕什么，我怕拒绝你，怕拒绝你后伤害到你，因为我太了解你了，你需要朋友，你是个很热情很讲义气的人，我承认我不是个很好的朋友，不能能时时刻刻陪你吃，玩，你知道吗，以前你每个要求我都尽量满足你，因为我这个人就是，别人开心，我就开心，所以，我严重不会拒绝人，这不是你的问题，是我个人的问题，而这现实的世界令我不得不这么做，好想好想跟你说声，对不起，为什么，昨天今早的快乐，可以因为你而消逝得这么快，取而代之的是泪水，其实自己明白自己的心比任何人还要痛，你没问题，问题出在我身上，我不会拒绝人，尤其是向你酱酱酱好的好朋友，你真的是很好人，一个陌生人都可以从你身上得到温暖，这样的朋友，谁不渴望有，刚来到UTAR，也好彩有你带给我很欢乐的大学生活，有时我在想我还能回头吗？我们如果想回以前酱，现在的我们会是怎样，可是我需要自己的空间，自己的时间，当我在用自己的空间时间，你是否会受伤，是否会寂寞会孤单因为没有我的陪伴，对不起，我实在不想你一直受伤害，长痛不如短痛，因为你做一次坏人吧，我从来没酱坏过，原来做坏人，心是这么这么，比跌倒，比流血还痛，谢谢你，让我成长了，谢谢你，在我心目中，你永远都是我好朋友，先认为我变了吧，先认为我是个坏人吧，先让你觉得我自私吧~   看着这个戴着笑脸面具的我吧，其实里面是一张流着泪的脸。泪在笑，心在哭！ 伤心到没感觉了~ We wear mask everyday because we want to bring happiness to everyone. ~~ from a friend


When I am small, I keep my think that people why need to wear mask? why? until now, I still don't like "mask" ~ just be ourself, no, is just use our heart to treat people, heart with heart. The world full with caring, I like it. I like the world full with life, bird, nature, and caring!  Stop blaming your problems, xue jou, when one come just solve and complete your dream and try to bring happiness to everyone, don't hurt them!  add oil^^ continue enjoy my life^^

park^^

I love the environment, I love bird performance. It is real, live and beutiful!
Like it so much! ^^

confusing~

~once no fall down, we don't know where we wrong at, once no failure we don't know where we need to improved. ~
Add oil~, that is the answer you want, isn't it? Why still so hesitate and confusing? Why? Why?
Cheer up, xue jou, cheer up! cheer up please
tear roll inside eye again,
once the action you made, you must responsible to it.
my own dream i must responsible by myself.
1=1, 2=2...
Start from now, after made a decision, i will go ahead!
Please do it! Please, i can resolve my shortage!

We can not judge a person by face, although it was a smile face but inside it may be is a crying face.
Although it seem look like a good person but it may be a bad,
but if it look like a bad but instead may be he or she is the one that best to you one.
Every choice must give up,
I give up my playing game time,
to pursue my dream.
I am still I~    

my family, miss you all so much!

every time making decision I like trap inside a big " mi gong" , finding an out way.

???

曾经听人说过，带个没有恶意的面具
带个保护自己的面具，做个假坏人~  is it true?

心

当我还小，面对人的心机和高傲，只有保持沉默，但，现在才发现，有时要学会笑着面对

不知不觉，才知道，人心难测！！！ 

曾经，天真的想，要当个心灵讲师，用爱心感化全世界的人，

在还没看完世界时的梦想，

满满的

发现了问题，

我

能克服吗？

我不喜欢面具！

不喜欢伪装！

当发现越来越假和现实的人类，有时宁愿保持沉默，

可是，

酱真的好吗？

我知道应该坦白，把问题说出来，

人心人心~

简单复杂就是看我们怎么想，烦恼快乐也是我们怎么想

一切从“心”开始~ 简单复杂烦恼快乐都是“心”的作品~

sound of mind~~

life, decision~  every decision sure got its opportunity cost. 
When I choose something I must give up something. 
This theory I know, but why, I am so difficult in making decision?
Is it I consider too much?
I know but how to solve this?
How can simple think and just go ahead?
How? 
I need compass, I need GPS, I need a light in my fife, lead me, I need it, 
yes, I am not mature enough yet, or I am not a good decision maker, 
but in simple life every decision also need to make, 
I know there is no other solution other than just think myself, then choose, then go ahead and never never look backward, yes, never never!




In UTAR life, I really hope to have a group of course friends, that can study together, can play together, no worry and happy everyday, is it will come true? 


How to study? I like second semester, more time compare to first semester, I don't know why, may be starting early. 


Now I only know nothing is perfect, just see how much we can accept. 
A new lesson I learn again. 
Just make it simple, and problem will minimize .


 just know can not, wan do!


 practice English! ^^


I want live a crazy uni life, 
but need maintain cgpa~~~~ how can do it?

2nd week of sem 2~~~ ^^

learn many thing, in university, it is not just the book, it is about the life. how to live, how to live happily!
Learn many new friends, and new environment.

1 true friend is better than many many friends~ the second semester I think is better than first semester, at least got more time and more freedom, I like it! yeah! yahoo!

I want improve my english, the spirit, and practise my piano!

分享很美的句子

1.人最软弱的地方，是舍不得。------ 舍不得一段不再精采的感情，舍不得一份虚荣，舍不得掌声。------ 我们永远以为最好的日子是会很长很长的，不必那么快离开。------ 就在我们心软和缺乏勇气的时候，最好的日子毫不留情地逝去了。

2.这个世界上，总有一个人在某处等你。不在这里，不是此时，便会在那里，是彼时，等你。------ 有一个可以想念的人你就是幸福的。

3.我们再也回不去了 ------ 我们不可能再有一个童年；不可能再有一个初中；不可能再有一个初恋；不可能再有从前的快乐、幸福、悲伤、痛苦。------ 昨天，前一秒，通通都不可能再回去。------ 生命原来是一场无法回放的绝版电影！

4. 没有人有耐心听你讲完自己的故事，因为每个人都有自己的话要说；没有人喜欢听你抱怨生活，因为每个人都有自己的苦痛；世人多半寂寞，这世界愿意倾听，习惯 沉默的人，难得几个。------ 我再也不想对别人提起自己的过往，那些挣扎在梦魇中的寂寞，荒芜，还是交给时间，慢慢淡漠。------ 几米

5.再好的东西都有失去的一天，再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天，再爱的人，也有远走的一天，再美的梦也有苏醒的一天。------ 该放弃的决不挽留，该珍惜的决不放手。------ 分手后不可以做朋友，因为彼此伤害过！也不可以做敌人，因为彼此深爱过。

6. 不要想如果…… 生命中不可承受之情，就在于人生没有重来的机会。如果当初如何如何，现在就不会怎样怎样……每一个岔口的选择其实没有真正的好与坏，只要把人生看成是自己 独一无二的创作，就不会频频回首如果当初做了不一样的选择。……人生只售单程票，过去的就过去了，更重要的是走好后面的路。

7.个今天抵得上两个明天。撕一张日历，很简单，把握住一天，却不容易。------ 相信别人，放弃自己，这是许多人失败人生的开始！------ 在最艰难的时刻，更要相信自己手中握有最好的猎枪。

8.遗忘，是我们不可更改的宿命，所有的一切都像是没有对齐的图纸。------ 从前的一切回不到过去，就这样慢慢延伸，一点一点地错开来。------ 也许错开了的东西，我们真的应该遗忘了。

9.别让深爱变成一种痛 ------ 如果你不爱一个人，请放手，好让别人有机会爱她。如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己，好让自己有机会爱别人。------ 爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱他。

10. 生命中令人悲伤的一件事是你遇到了一个对你来说很重要的人，但却最终发现你们有缘无份，因此你不得不放手。------ A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you，only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

11.一世容颜，过路的风景 ------ 红尘中，我们擦肩而过，到底，谁是谁的风景……我只知道当距离不再是距离的时候，我们一定会相遇，结成水，凝成冰，亦或，化作尘埃……但愿你是我最美的风景，我是你久等的归人

12.生命是一种过程而不是一个目的。------ 苦和甜来自外界，体味幸福则来自内心。------ 学会感恩，学会满足，让快乐溢满生命的花篮。------ 只要心是晴朗的就没有雨天！

14.什么是人生关键性的一刻 ------ 是一个决定；是一次选择；是向左，还是向右；是继续，或者放弃。------ 是跟过去告别的一刻；是勇敢擦拭伤口的那一刻；是抉择未来的那一刻。------ 要开心，先要“开”心

15.生命中，不断的有人离开或进入。于是，看见的，看不见了；记住的，遗忘了。------ 生命中，不断的有得到和失落。于是，看不见的，看见了；遗忘的，记住了。------ 然而看不见的，是不是等于不存在？记住的，是不是永远不会消失？

16.我们一生当中，并不可能只爱一个人，但往往有一个人让你笑得最甜，让你痛得最深，往往有一处美丽的伤口，成为你身体上不能愈合的一部分！------ 因为陌生，所以勇敢，因为距离，所以美丽。

17.一段不被接受的爱情，需要的不是伤心，而是时间，一段可以用来遗忘的时间。一颗被深深伤了的心，需要的不是同情，而是明白。------ 因为爱过，所以慈悲；因为懂得，所以宽容。

18.幸福不是终点------ 幸福是努力走过的道路，路上遇到的爱与感动，路上遇到的风雨、挫折、痛苦一起构成了这条路。------ 也是因为有了它们，我们才明白了幸福的真谛

19.当你一个人的时候，别想两个人的事，把回忆丢在一旁；------ 当你一个人的时候，只想高兴的事，把忧伤抛在脑后；------ 当你一个人的时候，来到一个人的浪漫，释放你的情感，敞开你的心灵。------ 其实一个人的时候，心在隐隐作痛，泪在蠢蠢欲动。

20.幸福的时刻，一半是和你在一起，一半是在梦里；------ 痛苦的时刻，一半是分离，一半是默默地想着你……

B4 the sTaRt of 2nd sem~ ~

time fly, 1st sem finished already.
Think back before, my start of 1st sem quite crazy^^ always cycle out with friends, no matter day or night.
Very fun, really enjoy
We meet, no reason, just because 缘， simple friendship, I like it ^^
 We all got our nickname, chasiew, banana, buffalo, purple, bicycle, clock yi, and of course me, bihun ^^


but my noob result cause me no time stay with them, now everyone may be already got their own groups, how about me? i don't know, I worry same case V and W happen again, I really scare really scare.


Don't know how you all already, really miss that moments, why happy moment always so short?
And that crazy moment, I wont forget. In my mind, it will always wonderful! crazy kampar life.

I like crazy life, as I play crazy, I won't stop, and I don't have mood study at all.
As I study, I will crazy study because need keep my mood in study, my mood easy fly!!!
What should I do? How to balance?


Fortunately, I am so lucky they still beside me, they support me all the time, thanks, I am really touch!
Actually I am not alone! I got many friends
Old friends and new friends~
  add oil, shinnyo, bihun, xue jou


2nd sem, i wont pretent myself, I wont hide myself, I don't avoid any problems, I just want learn how to say no ^^
live a happy sem 2 life^^

DuN GIve uP^^  yeah^^


Remember, no matter how a human change, she or he original is "good heart"
and remember, don't look down people, because she or he will become this is because their surrounding and just want protect themself,
I belief they can be changed even better, because they have "heart" too^^

When I saw our environment more and more destroyed, my heart have broken.
Protect our environment~~

my feeling ~


tommorow second sem already is it?? so fast, can not accept! but still the truth. 
my university life^^ all freedom, randomly manage by myself. 
I wan manage it efficiently^^ 


New sem new hope^^ 
坚持！毅力！


being positively! 


come on sem 2^^ yeah! ~~ me ~~ a university student can not give up easily~~ ^^

FReEdOm

Now I only know, we live not because others, who am I is not because others, live my own life, my own style and just be myself. ^^


It is not use to guilty
just be ourselves


Before, I like everything perfect. 
But now, sometimes non-perfect thing can be more naturally and harmonic. ^^
All the obstacles now I face is just a small matters
In this world, there are more people facing more challenging obstacles and more suffered still can face it happily, why we didn't?


Pursue dream is good
Earn money is good
study hard is good


but, over is not good
remember all of this purpose is just~
Happiness
So live happily~ from now!


Decision~ just made
don't scare 
don't avoid

live crazily!!! 


I like my life now
I like Kampar
I like freedom
I like my true friends




I like the park (just hope can jogging there often^^)
I like the uni life
I like pasar malam
I like the lake ^^


I believe I can life a happy and meaningful uni life here~


I can learn music n piano
learn dance
join psychology club
manage my time English


Luckily I found a "mirror" here, it is really not easy.
appreciate^^


the less we worry, the most we happy!
So just be as simple as we can~
let all flow naturally~

~TrUe FrIeNd~

~GooD Friend~

1、好朋友就是经常叫你"去死吧"的那些人......

2、好朋友就是老是说你有病叫你看医生的那些人......

3、好朋友就是抓住你的一个缺点说上半天的那些人......

4、好朋友就是在你面前肆无忌惮地说很难听的话的那些人......

5、好朋友就是说要拉大队去你学校把你吃穷的那些人......

6、好朋友就是看着你玩得很开心，自己却在旁边不参与也会觉得很开心的那些人......

7、好朋友就是会教你怎么走路小心，过马路看车的那些人......

8、好朋友就是你考完试还晕乎乎的时候出现在你面前嘻嘻哈哈，还说你不要怕，吸取经验，明年再考过的那些人......

9、好朋友就是跟你一起不分轻重可是对你父母毕恭毕敬的那些人......

10、好朋友就是平时恶型恶相，却在你遇到难事时语重心长地开导你的那些人......

11、好朋友就是那些无论原本是忧郁，沉默或是乐观向上，在一起总是嬉闹声一片的那群人......

12、好朋友就是你想起她时会嘴角上扬的那些人......

13、好朋友就是时间和距离都无法从你脑海和心中带走的人......

14、好朋友就是听到你说了一句错话笑闹半天还要罗嗦上一段时间的那些人......

15、好朋友就是不经常联系，但你还忘不掉的那个人。

16、好朋友就是两个人在一起时，你不用担心会说什么错话，做错什么事的那个人。

17、好朋友是你会突然想念的那个人。

18、好朋友是无论谁占谁一点便宜都不会计较的那个人。

19、好朋友就是和你同甘共苦，不会出卖你的那个人。

20、好朋友就是什么事都会和你分享的那个人。

21、好朋友就是好久没见，在一起时还会和你套心窝子说话，就像昨天刚在一起吃过饭的那个人。

22、好朋友就是和她在一起时你是最真实的你的那个人。

23、好朋友就是很久没联系，见面也不会尴尬的那个人。

24、好朋友就是无论你做了什么傻事。都会给你支持和信任的那个人。

25、好朋友就是无论她做了什么，你也觉得他是你好朋友的那个人。

26、好朋友就是半夜三更会和你一起纠结要不要睡觉的那个人。

27、好朋友就是在你面前会变得啰嗦，你会笑着说他像你妈的那个人。

28、好朋友就是无聊时喜欢凑在一堆一起做无聊的傻事的那些人。

29、好朋友就是会和你在大街上，即使丢脸也会拽着你的手狂奔的那个人。

30、好朋友就是会跟你在无意间对视之后再跟你一块放声狂笑的那个人。

31、好朋友就是你会因为他的一句话而充满勇气与信心的那个人。

32、好朋友就是彼此之间喜欢恶作剧并且在恶作剧成功之后两人都笑得很开心的那个人。

这些是你和你朋友之间做过了吗?

1、 睡在过同一张床

2、 穿过一样的衣服
3、 互穿过对方的衣服
4、 自己逛自己的，买回来的东西竟然一样
5、 一起哭过、笑过
6、 一起吃饭、喝酒、K歌
7、 一起出去旅游
8、 一到节假日，一定会出去庆祝/玩
9、 彼此羡慕对方
10、互相认识至少5年
11、都喜欢拿对方开玩笑 
12、家里人都知道她/他的名字
13、遇到困难，总是互帮互助
14、吵过嘴，干过仗，但依然很铁儿
15、难受伤心的时候第一个想和对方倾诉
16、一个眼神或一个小举动就知道她/他在想什么
只有朋友才会这样说----

只有朋友才会这样说：你怎么这么烦人啊
只有朋友才会这样说：别跟我臭得瑟
只有朋友才会这样说：生病了还到处走，想死啊
只有朋友才会这样说：我才懒得管你呢
只有朋友才会这样说：你怎么能跟他在一起
只有朋友才会这样说：你俩不合适
只有朋友才会这样说：分了更好，免得你更伤心
只有朋友才会这样说：你这么做值么
只有朋友才会这样说：别再那做梦了
只有朋友才会这样说：有我在，不用怕~

朋友 我们一起开心，开心的牵着手走在马路上吃着冰淇淋
朋友 我们一起难过，难过的心情第一个找到彼此诉说伤痛
朋友 我们一起分享，分享那恋爱的甜蜜分手的痛苦
朋友 我们一起哭泣，哭泣着拿着酒杯麻醉失恋的悲伤
朋友 我们一起感受，感受着彼此生活的一切一切 ！

不要再因为一件小事而去任性
不要再因为一句话而去怀疑他对你的真诚
不要当自己被外面的残酷璀璨的遍体鳞伤时，才想到有他的存在！

珍惜~ 

朋友，祝福你~

永远开心！