Nothing s impossible ~~~ hui ming birthday ~1st timE`~~~

Amazing. Nothing is impossible. I do it, I means my 1st time do like that. Oh my god, unbelievable, but, it really worth^^ Thanks. this short few hours is my most happier moment, although come and back alone by first time, first time back by train alone, but, I am not afraid XD very adventure and fun! haha. Plus now test is around the corner. Really thanks, cheng siew, and ping ping^^

I can not tell ping that not my parents come fetch me. First, she put me at jusco. When I entered, I straight go jusco' library, I worry encounter my parents. I study there, and know a new friend there who is doing assignment study at University, forgot what name already. Then, I wait Yi Qian finish her work in BM fetch hui ming together come jusco find me. Yi qian' s friend fetch us go train station buy my "back" ticket first then we go a Japan Restaurant. My first time also. HM also worry meet her parents because she tell them that she just go Jusco and din say about me. I need a MASK that time, hope nobody will recognize me, haha.

We eat egg roll mee, shushi and many delicious food, my favourite ^^ and cacor....
3 siao po start crazy non stop talking + laughing. Time too short for us to chat.

Surprise: CAKE happy birthday to hui ming^^
Her first time, cry la cry XD
So difficult for 3 of us to meet together. 2 got work 1 got test, wow

Then eugene call me, he and alvin both bring their girl friends go karaoke, long time no see, still so TB, haha. Hui MIng sing the most, haha.

Have to back earlier because yi qian and her friend got work the next day, and have to fetch me to ktm, thanks to them. Sleeping in yi qian house, learnt many, I growth a little bit today ~~~

know my mistake~ change it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nervous, tonight 9 pm choose timetable already, this time how? next semester how? Think think think, no need think every time I think also not accurate one, nervous. Today I learn some lesson, that is want learn how to say no! say no SAY NO! Thanks a kiam. I know you got some experience that others can not understands. But this made you trough! more TROUGH!

follow my own? ?????????? or follow????????????????????????????????????????????
actually both also can because already experience~~~

I feel very guilty! I have made a wrong choice before, wrong wrong WRONG!
I am so sorry!!! Why can I be like that, so bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I think angry is necessary because I am unforgivable, but I wont do it next time and, will learn how to say NO!

Xue jou, if you can not concentrate, don't blame people, because it is your problem to choose to follow others go out and is you don't know how to say no, so it is my own problem, now think back, why so childish? why? why? Why can so childish? lesson, never mine, and things or friends can not be so 执着,
now i only know I am really not a good friend!!!

I will change my BAD attitude, perhaps it is not too late!
I will try to change my "BAD" attitude!
This decision is a most " noob" decision! Why? I promise this is the last time that I made so "noob" decision! And, the problem is, I don't know how to say no, so, I want to challenge it in next semester,
Now only know, human is really care about others thinking because through others will see own self, and that is call looking-glass self. All let it flow naturally~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

This is university, "social uni" and

~~ lost ~~

decision again, why? meteor, can you bring me to a right direction, I am so confused now, please.
Hui ming, I want to go back, I know you hope too, why? time not match. Yi  qian tell me when you know I am not back she saw your dissapointness, causing me suddenly want to went back!

God what way should I go? What decision should I made? I totally lost! I don't want alone again! Yang shi, sinthoong, chooi hua, yee han, miss you all so much, if you are here you all will  guide me what should I do! Actually just a simple decision. SIMPLE DECISION. Sometimes i just will saw a blind sport! Who actually is my true friends? Who? I am lost !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am also a human being, use jenny' open minded, 1 person not so big problem!
Add OiL ^^ but, this semester really don't want alone, oh god, can not study today again, sure no mood to study, add oil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     think of hui ming and yi qian!  

cheer

nest semester I don't want 1 people >< Don't want T.T
I don't want mix mix TT Really suffer, oh God, do you hear me, wishing lake, do you function? Can I just make a wish? Can I? I don't want don't want alone, please! Cheer ^^ XD

XD XD XD smile, cheer!

I wil try my best back hometown!

mY dREaM ~

Live a life that you like. Sometimes I might ask myself, what is the life that I want? Can we don't do anything that we don't like? Can't? Is it? Today is a normal Saturday. I have arrange my third semester timetable, but please, is it alone in semester 3 again? God, up to you, no matter what happen, I have go through, that "suffer" moment already pass, how is my life? Unexpectionable, never mine. Just learn a sentence, I spoke no English when I was small. How do I write argumentative essay or academic essay if I even can not write a good story or express myself? Can I score my English? I tried to relax, but hundred questions zoomed around my head. Calm down!

        Hui ming, I don't know how to tell yi qian that I can not attend your karaoke birthday party? Can I? I know
you will understand. Hope you no discover this because want to give you a surprise. I wont forgot our "promise". Every times think back you will being motivated although already long time no see. >< Hoping that day! My dream!!!

ecs sketch~~~friday

I try my best, I will try my best to love you, English! Tonignt I and Synn Xiang have dinner with banana. Synn xiang borrow Muet book from Banana. Banana uni life like very stress. I don't want, I don't want lack of play of life, will bored me. Learnt many from the conversation. Study essay every night is it?

Talk back my life. In this week, I have already go through effective communication sketch. Although one of our group members fever, but, I really enjoy the whole process. I like this semester, got sociolization' s video, cheng siew fun fat people video, and this "playing more than practise". Anyway, fun but, I am quite tired now, I need rest now.

tuesday 1 day holiday

Recently, practising effective communication' s sketch. Wow, I become wai siew bo' mom, 2nd time to become mother again, haha. Actually sketch very fun. Enjoy it so much^^ and the fat people sketch fun too ^^

Recently feel that facebook is not a safety place already >< freedom, where are you?
Let make a hypothesis, if 1 day my parents will ..... but impossible, that thing happen, although I want it so much XD wake up, xue jou, how old I am, only 18, 18 ok, why so fast want fly?

but I really want to go to KL find hui ming, wait one day, I can make it^^
Yesterday go replacement class, first time attend class with kharis, david and rose marry, they very funny, haha, I take back lecturer' attendance list, oh my god, how can I do that, haha

first time eat a pan mian RM 5 something, first and the last time, haha XD although really nice that mee, but heart pain TT

Yee kee and banana and all degree friends next week test, add oil, jia you!

monopiano, don't know double handed, nevermine, singlehand, monohand also can ^^ yeah, waiting "shinnyo' album"     think too much, haha

Just now lunch eat with ecs group mate, shir lim they share about love, their love story let me think back............... something, nothing XD

Hui ming, yi qian, waiting you bring one bf when chinese new year XD haha

I want, I want go karaok party next saturday TT, can I?? can I? How?
I want! challenge again, nevermine, I face you, challenge, come on!!!!

sem break is coming soon~ planning to go KL, or woring part time, can I, xue jou, don't give up, ^^ 坚持到底, and learn car! add oil!  
yi qian do it, learning her favourite design and working as designer and in jusco.

Don't so childish, xue jou!! want understand parents ^^   and gain my own freedom ^^ and make them happy!
Yes!

ｗｈａｔ ｓｈｏｕｌｄ Ｉ ｄｏ？？

Encouragement from parents and family really is a motivation, but why? If in the opposite site, how is it?
My dad say, " if one thing is in the danger, we better don't touch it, I want learn drive car and I hope to drive myself but it seem not working. Why? why everytime also like that?
Really is if anything danger we can not touch? really is if danger we can not keep try it?

Xue jou, hear parents' advise, please, hear, why I fail to  do that, why I still want to face uncertainty, why I still want keep trying challenging? What should I do? I don't want my family worry about me, what should I do?

Why I still keep challenge new things?

如果家人的反对和不支持， 这是阻力，爸爸妈妈，你们可以相信我，鼓励我？ 我需要你们的支持， worry too much, how ? how??  I don't want lie, don't.

a FuN day ^^

Should I go back hometown?  This question also can made me so hesitated, I hate my hesitation, I decided already, I back! Hope this time I made a correct decision. A day an essay, try to make it. Today, I saw my class ecs presentation and my friends other group ecs presentation. Still have 3 weeks final already. Don't care, I bring test book back I think won't effect much. hui ming yi qian, i try to make it, I hope I can go back again before final, really hope, why every time time not match one, but although didn't meet, also in my heart everyday.

Yeah, sociolization presentation finish already and miss kow say very good, content enough n suitable. Yeah ^^
Today also help my friends made video. Quite fun. Know some new friends also and we dance wakawaka together. ^^ Sharon and Dvid and another forgot already.

Hope I am making right decision!