????? what feeling?

Today afternoon I went to Asley home, study with Asly and Elizaberth. But finally I feel that group study need quiet, if not difficult to concentrate. I told the thing to Asly and Elizaberth already. All follow naturally. It comes or go, up to God. ^^ Yes, I admit, I like him. But is it mi2 lian4? But asly say it possible happen also, but all let it follow naturally! Just now he got a lucky prize again want present me again, why???? Elizabeth hat don't ask me don't think too much XD ok. I will try calm down! Calm down! Why this sentence so familiar. Again! He still want accompany me see sun set. Why? Although i like him, but at I don't want he regret what he do now, if he continue, distance love is it too difficult to him? It need so much miss and heart. I just want him happy! HAPPY! Thanks God! Let me meet him, i admit the days with him is the happiest moment for me, but I worry I will  she3 bu4 de2 if i fall in it again! Although only 2 weeks that we know each other. 2 weeks!!! Lazy, no study, simple thinking~~~  Nevermine, I will like him~ by follow naturally XD add oil! Too Xin4 fu2 le, me!!!!!!! In this 2 weeks. I cry? T.T haha, cry with happiness!  

friday~ "frd telling something"

Yesterday night after, I have dinner with Asly, Amelia them. After that, Ching Siew want to find steeve. At this time, he on-line now, so I sms inform ching siew and rush back hostel. What am I doing? Then, We have chatting. Kai Lian tell me something impossible thing that Kai Xiang love me? He lie me is it? but he say if he lie me he cut. Recently, I don't know what am I doing, late sleep, keep sms ing, what am I thinking? When he ask me the question. Impossible for us to start a relationship? But we just know each other for 1 weeks, then 2nd week is just keep in touch by sms and online only. Why he always promise me thing. In 1 week of promotion, he has bring me to his house play piano before, present me firework, present me photoframe, belanja me so many times water and po biak. Every time promotion sure accompany me promote here and there. Why he treat me so good? Why?  2 time misunderstanding. Online chatting till whole night. playing sdo. His SDO also very good.  And talk about his background.  Why love me? I don't have appearance, less positive traits

^^

Today Khai' friend say he like me? confusing, nevermine, all follow naturally ^^ XD night^^

second sem break

for the second semester, many things have happen. In the 1st week, I have hang out  with ee leen to jusco, then in the Saturday, I have hang out with Yi Qian, Synn Xiang and Yun Xi. When we reach Yun Xi house, we go playground first, then we go pacific, then jusco, and finally the store.
With Yi Qian walk whole bek gong ceng, so awesome,

On Sunday go penang 1 day trip with Sin thoong yang shi jinq yee and yun xi. We go many places.
Then Monday start to work. Be a promoter. First day know few guys, they are 3 khai and 1 june, haha. Then We first go to penang's pasar malam work. Then only know is Kai Xiang birthday. As normal, I have a planning buy a cake then celebrate. Second day, we do for activation. Only know our interest is same as piano. Then we don't go for work the next day. He say want frtch me go his house play piano, omg,too kind already where got people will want to fetch de. Then the next day got promotion at another place, we go and walk and promote. Then the next day go his house, he say can fetch me go his house play piano. Then on Friday, go kai xiang' s house nearby pasar malam, after buy the shoe, we go walk for a while, again belanja people eat popia, then the next day is summit, he really present firework to me, then in summit working, the dj, again, misunderstanding our relationship, 2 time already, and cause whole super know us, == then his friends naughty talk something. Haizzz, make me very confuse with my feeling now, god, help me >< Please, bring me to the right direction and right feeling now. And psychology, should I continue? Helping people XD

2 weeks holiday already passes very soon, learn many lesson again. Actually, from being two weeks promoter, actually being a student better than being a promoter.

English, I have been learning you, music, piano, when can I play you?
Within this week, many things that I have do, hang out with old friends, and working,
And now what I need to do is, English, piano!
And concentrate in my study! StuDy, and study!
Add oil!

jusco gathering

A friend gathering day. Ee Leen, such long time not meet her, her hair long already, we were chatting non stop and then go mivie watch a "nania" movie. She presented me a present. Thanks. Appreciate very much! XD

~~ think back~~sem 2 life ~~~ feedback XD

Studying all the time, except the time of sleeping, bathing, eating and chatting. Yea, my first time December holiday pass by examination, final test. Quite amazing, want to praise all the foundation of UTAR. Listening to the chrismas song, music, some song draw me back to the memory, chasiew, steeve, asley, we are trying to focus and concentrate in our study. Say truely, if I study alone in hostel, my mood easily swinging and distract away, so decide group study, especially in this "holiday" mood final test, and, I wanna to say thank you, to you four, without you all, I can not study till so happy, and I really enjoy it! I first time feel that study is actually so happy. 

~ quote: never ever think yourself is the best, and don't do the things that dissonance which is your belief and your action conflict together, now only I know, and use all the normal heart treat everything, every person, because, nothing will last forever, don't try to owe, or belong, because, all the thing will end, the most importance is, live a life that we want, appreciate and do the thing that not harm to other and won't feel guity, live a life with a peace mind, then is enough, like now ^^ I really satisfied what I have now. Really thanks God, and Buddha ^^ Thanks~  

Don't afraid error made us growth, think back every erroe that I have made, but if don't have error that we made, will not have what we are now. 

For study technique, now only know the technique for study, but not too late XD  Now only know I like group study, but not that kind of "[playing" BUt this sem, I means second semester, i have made it ! 

This semester, have do many crazy and fun thing, first, I got go dance club' practice, hip hop. Then zhong hua yi fan, then go see guang liang, then music club, Chrismas night party, Song creation competition, first time playing pool, and the most crazy thing is go back find hui ming. Thanks to a friend! Thank you! 

And I want to say sorry about  I have choose to ignore you in first sem, just because of don't know how to say no, and "easy distract" means difficult concentrate, but now more better already XD 

lesson : want know how to refuse people or control; myselve rather than surrounding control me, then only can manage time and then only got enough time work or play or do other things I want^^ That is live a crazy uni life ！ 

lesson: appreciate all the friends, no matter how they are ^^ thank you! 

Wish for year 2011, I wish all friends and family that I know can live happily and healthier in their life! I hope I can change my attitude better ^^ Want to change the world, first I have to change myself. 

Yeah, all the best for a new year ^^  

~ sem 2 holiday simple write～～

First time so enjoy in English novel. So it can say find the story from online is fast more better^^ can find our own taste. Quite enjoy it. Start to love English! The reader digest do not know why it claimed that we have not make the payment, but actually no such thing. Long time didn't watch movie and go pasar malam. Fortunately  yesterday still can meet yang shi. Go tokun, meet eugene and yi qian in jusco, planning to meet sin thoong jinq yee and yun xi this sunday, hopefully can made it ^^

New year new wish, I wish that, can find a person or friend that has common dream, can pursuit dream together.   

Solo, I don't want! Although I independent! Don't care it, just live crazily and meaningful and a life that I want XD Thanks, I feel thanksful to all my friends, hui ming yi qian yang shi sinthoong, yun xi jinq yee, chooi hua, easy, wan hong, yee han, shinichi, wen yi, zi en, all the siao po club members, all teens' channel members......and of course, kampar friends (my mirror n that geng 38 geng n many other geng) give my life more colourful! ^^ Because you all, my "little" dream come true ^^ and my family, actually they very care me and for my own good, although sometimes don't like their method or got crash or conflict between us, but the most importance.

Because you all, I really change, from an unconfident, shy, introversion person, to now more better and got internal locus control person, yeah yeah!  that is why i want study psychology help others that same situation with me in the past. Got unfavourable experience. Let explore it, enjoy it! Enjoy life!   

memo ^^

http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2533743/1/Diamonds_and_Death

my direction at where?

today see Yang yan qi' case encourage and motivates me a lot.
Health is number one !
Again, just now, "raining" at my face again, why?
I am trying, trying don't make you all worry me ^^
xue jou please, don't work, don't drive, don't go back alone, don't always go out!

I need rest, tired!